Saturday, May 21, 2011

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An Update of Sorts

I have done an awful job of keeping up with the blog. The truth is, I have done an awful job at keeping up with anything writing-related. I definitely go through cycles of writing highs and writing lows. There were weeks where I posted multiple times a day and now we are in a cycle of weeks were posting a multiple times a week is the norm. I'm just so emotionally exhausted at the end of the day that all I have been doing is laying in bed with a book and escaping into the fantasy life of someone else. I'm not physically up to cooking or baking. I would love to cook and bake more, but I despise the cleaning. I spend my entire day cleaning up after Cati and I really don't care to give myself anymore to clean. For as busy as Cati keeps me I have become so lazy with everything else. I only have x-amount of energy at the end of the day and it's just enough to see that I shower, brush my teeth, and flip the pages of my book. Simply put, I'm weary and worn. There's so much I'm responsible for and so much to keep my feeling either stressed, disappointed, or frustrated.

I think it's time for my batteries to be recharged and, luckily enough, Alex has vacation time coming up. We'll be going to Tampa for a few days and I'm really excited about the trip. There will be beer and brewery tours for Alex, Busch Gardens and Sesame Street for Cati, and a second pair of hands to help care for Cati for me. Is it sad that I am mostly excited about the trip because it means going somewhere new while not having to care for Cati all by myself? If you have any recommendations on things to see, places to eat and shop in Tampa please let me know!

My grandmother is doing great. Thank you to those who have asked through the comments and email. Cati and I have been going to see her almost every other day. She's still in in-patient rehab but she is recuperating and gaining movement and strength in her arm and leg each day. Her therapy includes learning how to walk with a walker and she's supposed to be released on the 30th. I pray that she continues to get stronger and goes back to fully-functioning sooner rather than later.

I'm hoping once my grandmother's out and we've had the opportunity to escape from our everyday lives I will be back to normal blogging, cooking, baking, and writing. I hate feeling like I'm in a funk because it means I'm stagnant with no desire to change. Thanks for being patient with me.

1 comment:

I Sing In The Kitchen said...

I know weary and worn so well. I think your trip to Tampa will help immensely. Getting away, even for just a day or two, always gets me recharged.

I lived in Tampa for 8 years. You will have a blast. Busch Gardens is one of my favorite places on the planet. Bring Cati's swim suit, because the kiddie section has a lovely water "park". Try to get someone to watch her while you and Alex go on Montu---best roller coaster in the world.

The Tampa Zoo (Lowry Park) is fantastic. Bring Cati's swim suit for that, too.

Definitely check out Ybor City. There is a trolley there that kids love and it is a good place to eat and drink.

St Pete Beach is great, but you probably have plenty of that in Miami.

Have a blast. Hang in there. You're like me...too hard on yourself. I understand completely.