To Work or Not to Work

Darn. Life's catching up with me. Or rather, I'm coming out of the post baby every-day's-Ground Hog-day life and thinking about what will happen with me professionally. Before the baby I didn't know what I wanted to do and now with the baby I really don't know. I am ok with the prospects of never doing anything with as much vigor and passion as I do my "job" of caring for Cati, but I feel I should at least like whatever else I do. So where does that leave me? Apparently, nowhere. Ugh. This is what I would like out of a job:

*Flexible hours just in case something comes up with Cati
*Enough pay to cover day care costs (I can't get over how much day care costs!)
*Has to be worth not being Cati's main caretaker.

But what's worth it? I don't even know if I want to be a lawyer if I finish law school. Maybe I can do something with my master's? Counselor? Child Life Specialist? Nothing excites me. Then I try to think of the things I love and that includes baking and photography. But can I even make a career out of either of those? Would I still love them if I started doing them for pay? Alex suggested pastry school but I feel intimidated because I've heard that the culinary field is tough and I don't know if I have it in me. At least we both agree that if and when I go back to work it has been something that's worth it on both a financial and emotional level.

Why can't I just win the lotto? That way I can continue taking care of Cati and have money. Oh wait. In order to win the lotto I need to play and guess what? I'd rather spend $1 on ice cream.